Down the Rabbit Hole - Holly Madison

Down the Rabbit Hole

By Holly Madison

  • Release Date: 2015-06-23
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
4.5 Score: 4.5 (From 3,319 Ratings)


The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


  • Great book!

    By Ajhull1123
    Absolutely loved this book. It felt as though I was right there during the stories she tells. Very inspirational.
  • Girls next door

    By Samax0x0
    I remember watching the GND when I was a lot younger, it was one of my favorite shows. After reading this book I watched GND episodes I haven't seen in years, I picked up on things that Holly pointed out in her book. I really didn't think I would enjoy the book as much as I did but I thought it was great. I couldn't put it down, I finished it within about two days.
  • Love love love

    By Amandalcook1
    Love this book! Holly is so real and open. She's so inspiring. Love her
  • So many times where I couldn't put it down

    By Maxithecat
    A fun insight into the life of a former playboy bunny. It's not what I expected, enjoyed this book and I couldn't put it down.
  • Mis-Spelling 👎

    By BELIEBERswagswagswag12
    This was an okay book I suppose. I was thinking it would be juicer but it was kind of dull. I even found misspellings. "A week letter I received a letter from Hef reprimanding...." It shows page 904 of my iBooks, not sure where it would be in the actual book. But learn how to spell Holly!! 😳
  • Great book!!

    By Kchase123
    Finished this book in two days, really makes you realize that fame and fortune might not be as glamorous as it seems. Being from Oregon myself it's almost like every girls dream and her story makes you revaluate what you want out of life.
  • Such a great read! Playboy fans will enjoy

    By Christopher Bone
    While a lot of people are saying she lied her way through this book, you have to read and think to yourself, "well this does make sense" While I hate to hear the true story I still consider Playboy an amazing old Hollywood iconic brand and Holly to be a wholesome person.
  • Mediocre

    By SusieMac46
    Wish I had not spent the money on this book. Madison whines throughout the whole story about how awful everyone is to her and how nothing is her fault. Even living in the Playboy Mansion is not her decision, to her her tell it. Very boring.
  • Such a page turner.

    By Sierra Plath
    I have no words to explain how much I loved this book. But even more how much I'm thankful Holly was able to share it with us all.
  • Holly's Fairy Tale

    By Delows
    I loved this biography. It was a fun book to read. I felt like I was on an adventure with Holly and I not only enjoyed The Girls Next Door but I'm also very excited that her dreams finally came through. Maybe her next book with share her life with her husband and Rainbow. Hope they all continue to live the real fairy tale and maybe someday she, Kendra and Bridget can become friends again.